it sucks to have these overwhelming feelings for someone who hardly gives you anything in return. it hurts to try so hard and to get nothing just okkk and hmm. i cant stand not knowing what’s going on and it frustrates me and i want to like cry everyday because of it. you are all i want and i feel like the way things are going its not going to happen. it all scares me so much. so i try and not do anything stupid to make you upset. but i think i do anyway. all i want is for you to tell me you arent going to leave me cause if you do i think ill die. i hope this all gets better because i dont know how much longer ill be able to handle feeling like this everyday. no one is ever going to read this but it feels good to get it out. does anyone have any advice for me?